Overcome

Life is truly beautiful when you learn to stop caring.

This still life is so peaceful.

New found hobby

It's pouring rain

10 o clock at night

I'm in my yoga pants and oversized hoodie

Music blasting through my headphones

I'm walking

Walking

Jogging

Picking up my pace

I start running

Picking up my pace

Everything feels numb

All that's on my mind is the road ahead of me

Your face flashes in my peripherals

I run faster

Faster

Splashing into puddles

No care for anything

Soaking wet with rain and sweat

It's been nearly two miles

I run for my freedom

I don't remember your face anymore

Your touch is a distant memory

Finally I have found control

Freedom

Post Office

Today I went to the Post Office for my boss. He said he needed a book of stamps, so I drove there and stood in the back of the long line. The place was packed with people and It was quieter than a library. I took my headphones out of my pocket and started listening to some hardcore techno. All of a sudden, some old man walks in the door behind me and starts twitching and fidgeting when the song goes into a hard synth solo with heavy bass. The twitching and the music were perfectly in sync. He falls to the floor, the music progresses, I laugh my ass off. Turns out, he was having a seizure. The people working behind the counter and the people in front of me come and help him. Still shaking, I'm doubled over, laughing.

Im a horrible person.

Your pride suffocated me

Two weeks.

I give it two weeks.

You're going to gather up all the right words to say to me.

All the right words to make it make sense in your head.

All the right words to make it sound like you care about it.

But the truth is, you don't.

Your inability to fucking see that things aren't perfect became aware to me.

You're no

Artist.

Musician.

Genius Visionary.

Viking Warrior.

You're a sad soul who will never be able to find happiness in anything you do.

You want to open your eyes, but your pride gets in the way.

The day you rejected my imperfections is the day you lost happiness.

I was the key to saving you, and you threw me away like some whore.

The problem with ignoring magic

If I'm not worth the fight,

And you're not worth the drive,

Then we're not worth the time,

And I don't see the point.

Love

A word that is used everyday

I said it to him in my car last May

I must not have know what it truly meant

Out the door with his bags he went

I said it to him because I thought it felt right

Dated three years, hungout every night

Hidden in the word there was false hope

I couldn't do it anymore, was at the end of my rope

Love is described as, 'everlasting' and 'fate'

Never felt it before; I must not have a mate

I've never loved a man past his error

I swear I've dated the worse, they cause me true terror

I'm almost positive I'm meant to be alone

Just surviving in this world until I'm all grown

I've convinced myself I can make it alright

I've learned to cook, and can tuck myself in at night

Love is a hoax; extremely cliche

I can make myself happy when skies turn gray

Swallow

IT'S ABOUT TIME.

Hayden

"im happy. but only because i know things work out. so dont worry. goodbye kelsey."

And there goes three years.

Somehow I still can't let go..