Lord knows, it would be the last time.

I used to say to myself, "I always get what I want. If I don't get it, I must not have wanted it that bad." And this used to be true. I would proudly tell everyone this with confidence. I worked hard for everything I got. And while I still work hard, if not harder for everything I get, I came across a situation where I wanted something really bad and couldn't have it. I don't ask for alot, and this is so simple, but I don't have a reign over people's free will. So now I don't ask for anything. I have no control over what I get. I've stopped wanting because I realized I can't get him.